Wednesday, November 24, 2004
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the new job.
Lirong found a new job. front desk. GRA = Guest Relation Assistant. Cool right? She is in her green coat and skirt with a shiny yellow shirt inside. I have to say she is elegant, posh and gorgeous. She's born with this body and shape la. I felt a little inferior sometimes. Though we're of the same age, she is working full time now and I'm still studying. Like a kid to her. One thing I'm worried of, will she become another person? Well, those ladies in that job look so sly to me. Afriad that they will hurt my girl. Will they? Hmm.. maybe I'm a little paranoid la. Just remind Lirong must must becareful and dont trust those ladies easily. You may never know what they do behind you. Ha~
hmm.
| tiffany. 1:48 PM|
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Friday, November 05, 2004
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don messed with me.
today is a bad day. got bully by my fren. sim meiching. she scolded me. say things i cannot forgive her.. yet. i'm angry and sad about her. to her, i'm selfish, petty, like a ger and i dont fit to be a bung right? she actually say this to me when she's apologising to me. what the fuck? is this call apologising. fuck off. i no need. just dont bother me alright dear.. my dear still speak up for her. at first i thought she's having sides. sighh. when i finished my work, she message me. she comforted me. she messaged me, she loves me. at that moment, i thought, my day was not spoilt after all.
when i got home, feeling very very down still because i couldnt meet my girl after her work. the person i'm not happy with works with her and had already planned to have supper with my girl afterwards. i've to stay at home. halfway surfing the net, she called, was so happy she call me. in the end the conversation turn me off once more. TOTALLY.. seriously my day SPOILT. feeling down down down. she ask me to work tomorrow night, but i already planned to go out with my friends at zouk. i already miss my fun this wednesday. i'm gonna miss it again? if i refuse to work, she gonna work for them. they're damn fuck up. i hate them. i dont enjoy myself in stamford cafe. i dont. they call us when they need us. we're just like the pawn on the chess. controlled by them. nothing else we can do.
i dont want you to work the hell whole day and still have to join us at zouk. you understand girl? i dont want. i rather i work. sighhh. this makes me dont want to carry on. thats it.
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| tiffany. 5:08 PM|
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Monday, November 01, 2004
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hais
ydae had a big fight wif her. i feel like a useless gerfren to her. she wanted a break up badly. badly.. she said almost five months le. i never improve. i always make her cry. she cannot take it le that's why she initiate a break up again.. we're like break up dunno how many times le. when we never quarrel we seems like a loving couple. people will envy us that kind. but when we quarrel.. sighh. ydae nite, sitting at a dunno wad park near city hall, she spit out everything and both of us cried badly. she said lots of lots of my bad points. ydae den i realised i really don fit to be hers. i don even fit to had a gerfren. i only make her suffer. was damn sad. i thought a while den i agree to break up with her. i told her i will pretend nothing when wrong when we work de. told her everything like when we break le i'll try to live on. she wanna hold me but i move away. seriously at that point of time i feel like letting go. not letting go because i don love her anymore, but because i don want her to suffer with me anymore. -double sigh- after that she said if i cry she wont break with me. ha weird. well, i cried because the things she said too touching le. i ask her why she don wish to break up with me le, she said she dunno. before that she wanted a break up badly one lo. she said she's very miserable being with me. tolerating my temper.
haiss. she said she wanna break up like numerous times le. miss count le. damn tired and i got scarier and scarier every each break up. but i juz don want her to go.. i wont want..
>_<
| tiffany. 7:52 AM|
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