Wednesday, April 26, 2006

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| tiffany. 10:46 PM|

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it takes 10 lies to cover 1 lie

please dont lie

b true

i trust everyone innocently

but im always the one hurt badly..

i don wanna show not because im fine. its because i dont want to give you any burden.
yea.. let everything go naturely i kno. actually im confused too. you should kno why. im confused because im scare. im seriously damn confused. is not that i dont believe you.. sometimes its really very tough for me to accept again and being hurt terribly again..

can i request something? dont leave me unless i do?

sighhs if you cant promise me anything dont promise me. "promises dont mean nothing" i mean i dont want any empty promises. juz dont promise me anything ok? action speaks louder then words ma.. i dont wanna pin high hope, in the end im upset again. tho diz kinda things is kinda unavoidable but you kno.. anyway am i askin much from you? whatever. i think im out of my mind. think nobody kno what im talkin about. dont ask me anything. questions are bad.

im strong. i believe i am. =/

| tiffany. 9:34 PM|

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Monday, April 24, 2006

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zill and jac 


| tiffany. 8:12 PM|

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Sunday, April 23, 2006

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i feel so guilty today. tho i helped lirong in getting a new job at marriott front desk but we think that she never get that job. why? because she has a bad history. its all my fault that she lost her previous job as in in the GRA line. sighss. im so mean. so bad. its not that its not serious. it consider her future. people are so realistic. they may not hire people with bad background. and well, lirong dont want to get the job by pulling string. i wanted to help, but im so helpless. but i think by shutting my mouth up helps her alot. im like her jinx. whatever i do whatever i say i cant help, in fact i worsen it. we've kno each other for like 4years but im stil giving her trouble. as in i should have understand her. i mean i dunno why i wanted to help everytime but i.. sighhs.. im 21 diz year. but im like not a grown up person.

oh wells, but my manager praised me today. today during breakfast, there is diz 3 late guest. we close at 11am but they arrived at 1055. why are these people so late for breakfast?! so what if its sunday morning? haha. anyway they wanted to change table when ive already seated them, then i gave them a sulk face. haha i knew he saw that. that time my manager was serving him, he told my manager to ask me not b upset because of they change table. oh man! that was so embarrassed because he never complain to my manager about im giving a unwilling face instead he ask me not to b upset. haha. well then my manager told me about that. he said the past when manager told me that i will show him a angry face but today i smile.. haha what he meant is im very rude last time. im also rude to manager la. dunno why leh im like that now.

anyway lirong is going bac to cafe swiss tomorrow! wheee.. cuz my bro and sis not working then im alone but now got lirong acc me. whee.. but first i must wake up early cuz stupid lirong so enthu scare to b late on her first day. for what man. eh then second i cannot quarrel with her! last time we always quarrel during work then our colleagues always suffer. haha. I MUST CONTROL !


| tiffany. 7:26 PM|

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Wednesday, April 19, 2006

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cafe swiss

ive work at cafe swiss for around two years. before i quit its call the stamford cafe. everyday ive to start work at 7am, wake up at 545. work until 3pm or later. sooo tiring. because u kno swissotel has 72levels. there is always more than 500 guests flood down cafe swiss for morning american breakfast. and my work scope is to seat guest to their table and pour them coffee or tea. we hav to clear their finished plates within 3minutes after they're done. refill their coffee and tea. tho its seem so easy but there is always more then 500 guests everyday my leg breaking liao. plus the people there, sighhs. we've got so many newcomers but all of them work so slowly. i miss my ex colleagues. meiching, bobo, desmond, murugan and weiqiang. we're double speed of those newbies. if ure new u should work fast and learn more and listen to those seniors. but.. i realised those girls really take things for granted. the first day when im bac i saw them eat happily in the pantry. at that moment i tot they've work for like more than a week. little would i kno they only work for 3days. cool. they're so daring. rem the first day i work i dont even dare to drink ice water.

well im no longer the unreasonable complain queen at work anymore. i tell myself i juz do my part. im cool. when time's up i go home. finish my job on time. shall triple my speed cuz ive those slowster. cmi. its ok for me. i wont let them hav the chance to take me for granted. tho work there is not as happy as the past. i'll juz treat as i work for money. after all my sis and bro still work there and lirong is coming bac. but she has better endurance than me. next week lirong is bac, but.. i heard those slow ladies are going bac to school. shit man. its gonna short of staff again. my knee really cmi liao. muz rest more. but i cant seem to sleep early. im so tired but i cant sleep in the night. everyday i got home i fall asleep on my parents bed. haha. missed playing ball with julie bird they all today. i mean i suppose to meet them to play ball. sorry.. ciaos. goodnight sweets..


| tiffany. 11:18 PM|

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cafeswiss 


| tiffany. 12:34 AM|

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do i look like a bartender? 


| tiffany. 12:32 AM|

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Tuesday, April 18, 2006

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first day of work yday. leg pain like hell the second day. oh man. my operated knee. lousy. so weak. pain pain pain! eh everybody welcome me bac but.. everybody askin where lirong? haha. sianss. we're frens now. quit asking. rubbing salt to my wound. well, ive got a big heart. shall work. do my part. heck wadeva shit. heck those new girls new guys out there who only kno how to eat and work slowly. i miss meiching, murugan, desmond, weiqiang bobo. i miss workin with dem. tho im eating with those newbies, im like eating to myself. ji mo. to bro is workin with me but diff job scope. ahhh shall sleep earlier. rest my damn knee! well well everyone tot ive turn straight. madness. im not man meh! hahaha think im quite andro. holy. sians ciaos.


| tiffany. 10:37 PM|

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Saturday, April 15, 2006

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bored die me. idiot. fuck off everyone! make me sooooo sooooo bored on good friday. its a bad friday for me. pms. jun said pms is a IN thing now. hurhur. im at home. my dad also at home. he juz came bac from china. that time he's not around i feel weird weird de. but now he's bac i rather he's not bac! ask mom to call me talk bout how am i gonna pay my bike installment. nag like fuck. make me quarrel and shout at her. fuck. he's every word has so many hidden meaning. fuck him. i hate the way he wanna spite me. fuck youuu. make my fuckin day even worse. urghhhhh. tmr got frenly match. breathhhheeeeeeeeeeeee. muz relac.


| tiffany. 12:00 AM|

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Friday, April 14, 2006

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threesome today.

went out with jun and lala today to lala's nearby play bball. stupid la three people how to play bball. a few ah bengs over there, dont even bother to challenge them la, no kick. haha kiddin. well, its boring! so after awhile we travelled to changi village eat dim sum. next time shall bring them to yum cha for dim sum. there is the best. jun wanna try the paper wrap chix. wee.. me n lala like the lotus bun. we're crazy over it. changi village one got egg yolk in it. like mooncake sia. hurhur happy going out with them. carefree. tho its juz the three of us. hmm if lirong liangmin boy and kim around better. more laughter. eh stupid jun laugh at my 'photogenic memory'. -_- it should be photographic memory. hurhur. now i kno how boy feel when we always correct her england. totally~

oh wells im lookin forward to monday's outing.. weee.. rem i said bout i wanna go movie with jen? here is it. gonna ask my long-lost-never meet friend jul and even-longer-time-never-meet eileen out on monday. think lirong will be happy meeting eileen. they can 38 together. lirong got partner. no need to mix with bungs. hur! hopefully eileen can make it. and i think somebody will be damn damn glad to see her around. -shrugs jenna and julian off on tue! its a great timing. gonna spend the whole night with them i swear. even if i need to wake up at 6 the next day. don care. weee.. ciaos


| tiffany. 2:11 AM|

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Thursday, April 13, 2006

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went out to meet jenna nearby her house. we talked alot. been very vex diz few days. fortunately ive jenna! i feel much much beta after talking to her. and is those deep in tots that kind of talk. i find it easy to talk to her. aftall we're 9yrs friend. she's still the same so naggy. always there to remind me to study hard. now, she keep naggin nag me to muz muz muz complete my course in nafa. haha then we suddenly got diz goal. she said she will wait for me to complete my course at the same time she can save up money to study overseas. she wants me to study overseas with her! wheee how great. she still rem me. haha i study art and she study business. best friend foreva. we even talk bout future. which is so far far away, bout life, bout girlfriends, bout are we gonna get married. so much so much. now that i dont hav girlfriend, i muz really set a goal. she's right. u dont hav to be with that girl even if u love her. no girlfriend wont die. but she kno im there, always there.

hmm yday lirong mentioned something, she said that i trust friends easily then i always kena bullied by them. she meant that im a easy target? oh man i didnt realise that. well, im a social person and i get along easily with friends, i dont hav motives knowing anyone. why are some of them so bad to cheat me? i always a very jiang yi qi friend but i dont think what i did ive in return. i mean i dont really hav many trusted friends. is it i dont do much to my true friends so they cant sense my sincerity? or im juz one not trustful friend? hurhur -smug-

thanks jenna for that listening ear. i wanna watch movie with u next week =)


| tiffany. 2:47 AM|

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Wednesday, April 12, 2006

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zavdiel is one month old~ 


| tiffany. 3:41 AM|

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boy boy and jun! i changed my blogskin myself diz time. u guys cannot blame me for not doin it myself ma. i never learn javascript. anyway i dunno why cannot see the pictures. haha stupid. im still learning la. ask u all to help me nobody want to help. idiot. im a computer idiot.

anyway today i sent lirong home after visiting zavdiel together at tamp. hmm i hav keep thinking of i always hav to make lirong suffer when i send her home with my motorbike. why? because the damn cold night. its freezing cold when ure on my bike, furthermore its always duper long journey. im guilty to send u home with my bike. but that's the only transport ive.. =( if only i got driving licence i can drive my dad's car. sitting behind me on the bike alone its cold and bored !!! because i cant hear u on expressway! if only i can drive!!!!! urghh. we can chat till i reach jurong. u can even sleep when ure sleepy. u wont mess ya hair with that stupid smelly helmet of mine. i can lower down the coldness in the car on cold days. there's roof on top! u wont hav to suntan with ya clothes on. boo! i need to get my licence. oh last one, we wont fall sick if we were to catch in the rain while im riding. sighss. DONT RIDE BIKES. its aint romantic at all. so many disadvantage.


| tiffany. 3:12 AM|

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Tuesday, April 11, 2006

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its all about angela yap and june yap.

somebody made me and lirong worried that fine day. scare me to die. nabei. ure juz one silly dramatic boy. but to my prediction u guys will be very very fine. dont be silly and think so much alright? i kno u trust her. =) she loves u alot, alot and alot. lala, jun wont break your heart anymore, juz have to talk things out and don LIE, don keep things from each other. tho u may think that u don wanna tell because not to hurt your love ones, it may lead to more misunderstanding. i kno u never lie. its juz misunderstanding.

haha i kno how to say u, i myself not setting any good examples. as for me, i only can envy the both of u. the love.. is so strong. i can feel it. sometimes i muz say i cant stand u guys. lala and jun giv me goosebumps. hurhur. but i stil wanna hav threesome outing with the both of u. don abandon me hor? thanks to lala, ure always there to listen to my whine. u'll always pick up my call when im crying. and thanks to jun, ure a bro who will share with me with your tots. we always hav the same thinkin. eh i hope so. haha. we're the same kind. short-tempered, paranoid, over-sensitive but also we're trying to change.

oh that very day, when ure not in good condition, u msg me harsh words. i think u don rem but that hurts. i kno u don mean it because i did that to u when im like u that day. i actually wanna reply bac u harsh words but i cant. i typed and deleted away those ugly words =)


| tiffany. 3:47 PM|

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Sunday, April 09, 2006

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she treats her very very good. i wonder my her treat me diz good before. i guess so. its juz tat i never come to realise until today. she wont use harsh words on her even on pms day. i think so only. but when she shout at her means she really is angry. diz is what i think, what i feel. dont get me wrong. is not that im here talking bout another girl means i got new target. is juz that i feel she is a very good friend. she treats everyone the same except her 'her', damn damn good. i envy. she will always put her in top priority without thinking that she is zhong she qin you. she takes care of her tho she is the female side. she gives everything to her first. awwww man. i dunno how to decribe how good is her alr. maybe i haven see how bad she is yet. haha.


| tiffany. 2:25 AM|

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Friday, April 07, 2006

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its not the surrounding or people that change you or me. dont see things on the surface. uve ya family. its rubbish that u wanted to divert ya attention. juz admit that your feelings fade. ive alr learnt to accept that it faded. im brave enough now. stop giving those excuses. i dont mind ya neglection. or rather im used to it. stop giving me false hope. if you don like juz stay away. you told me we're friends now. juz b natural. do what friends always do. no need to deliberately avoid. friends stil can ask to concern, juz a simple msg wil comfort me alr you kno? but when i msg you, you msg me half way purposely dont wanna reply. why are girls like diz. hang me in the air. talk things half way. im not irritating alr. if you wanted to msg me first dont msg half way please. ive stop myself from msging you all the time.



| tiffany. 2:48 PM|

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Wednesday, April 05, 2006

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i miss her.. i miss her so much.. that it hurts.. =(

i look like i cant go bac to the real me. i cant sleep last night. got headache. heartache also mayb. life isnt any beta. it got worse. my 21st. its the worse year. its even bad than the time im after you.. im tired. im always complain im tired. im human. i cant take it anymore. i dont wanna hurt you. haha ive quit smoking. anyway if u read my blog, im goin bac to cafe swiss to work. lazy to find any other job. goin bac to reminise the great time we spent there. the people and the quarrels we always have.


| tiffany. 4:36 PM|

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