Thursday, August 31, 2006

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i think i suffer some illness. INSOMNIA. serious one. i cant sleep even when i slept for only a few hours. it affects my school, because i always cant wake up the next day esp on 830 lesson. damnit. i think sleeping is extravagant? waste of time. i can do alot things when im awake. do my assessment which is the most stressful thing im facing at the moment. there's so many to do.

basic drw - 1point perspective, still-life, landscape, choice-of-our-own and the a2 size.
fig drw - 3 real people, 2 comic style people (i think so)
3D - sculpture: using recycled items (tedious!)
2D - design 6 icon transformation w colors and a poster to design (my graphic design suxxx)
photography - needa go alot places to take 'shadow, speed, scales' (u muz hav the EYE)
print making - i missed 2 lessons. muz finish many many work in lit lit hrss =(

is it because of stress in school thats why i always got sleepless nights? or there's special reason? i juz cant pin it out. -baffled- recently, ive juz got over something so i should be able to sleep what. oh ya one thing, i got serious pms too. every month when my period arriving, people please stay away from me. tezel already complained its horrible. last month, i met tezel to buy some art materials. she talked to me i kept quiet, besides that i replied in a very very harsh way. hahah poor girl. and then this month i kno my pms come already, i avoid her. and then it lead to neglect her and stuffs like seldom sms her seldom talk to her. coop myself at home. so basically i got two problems la? im sick! jul asked me to get sleeping pills, is it that serious? ohwells like that better what, i can do homework =/




| tiffany. 3:04 AM|

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Tuesday, August 29, 2006

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love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get - only what you are expecting to give - which is everything. what you will receive in return varies. but it really has no connection with what you give. you give because you love and cannot help giving. if you are very lucky, you may be loved back. that is delicious but it does not necessarily happen.


| tiffany. 5:05 AM|

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Tuesday, August 22, 2006

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| tiffany. 3:28 AM|

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Sunday, August 20, 2006

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weee finally can blog. hav been busy recently. busy workin, going out with friends and of cuz homework. and guess what? i haven sleep! recently got numerous sleepless nights. im an owl. cant sleep cant sleep. well well angela's big blast day coming, jun and her going to thailand for honeymoon, im gonna miss them. i also wanna thailand shopping. gonna save up money for thailand and i will go with my sister even if weiling and julian cant go. and must save money to china - ning xia too. haha i go there for 15days volunteer work. so fun lah and so happening. im gonna teach children in china math, english? and to draw. tho the temperature there is like 5-10degrees and my china friends said there v v v isolated plus no water. oh man. budden buddem im going with my classmates. me shihan and tezel so enthu la. can help people so we dont mind. i wish they select us to china! please please select us! well u kno im a helpful person. hoho.

ok enough. ciaos


| tiffany. 7:20 AM|

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Sunday, August 06, 2006

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-cough cough!- aye im sick again. due to sleep late, smoking, hot sun on sport day, not enough water during amazing race, zill's banana choc birthday cake and bbq on friday. and i stil work so tomorrow i on mc so i can do my playground. AND its 5am in da morning im still blogging! ohwells alot things to talk about on friday man. its nafa sport day and it held at sentosa, i joined amazing race with the folks. we almost give up halfway lah. its damn hot and we dont hav water lo! i cant live without water. anyway from the starting point, we're the last to finish the clue then we got lost and were very tired because we run here and there. -sweat- however, we managed to complete the whole race and came in 6th position. we're not the last alright, you girls rox! haha i was too tired lah, i sent scarlet home after that and i almost got into accident cuz i fell asleep, how could i.

oh then i got home to sleep, slept for two hours and we celebrated my sista 18th birthday. brother bought her secret recipe banana choc cake for her! i swear im gonna get the same one on my next birthday. worse come to worse i buy myself. hahaha. i simply love bananas! well well then we proceed to ecp to hav our mini bbq. without the pit we spead the mat on the ground, tied the light source on the coconut tree and set the fire in the aluminum tray. the bbq was great because we even hav music, ha from the nearby pub, there's live band so the ambience there basically is 'ro-man-ti-ca'. shall bring tezel there the next time -grin-

and so after the whole thing, im sick. haha. actually my immune system quite good, is juz that i never drink lotsa water. ohwell im finding excuses. hoho okok shall stop and do my playground.




| tiffany. 5:22 AM|

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Wednesday, August 02, 2006

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ohwells i think everyday i'll blog at wee hours. just got back from meeting liangmin and julian. SUSPOSINGLY we're going to thumper tonight because its once a month lesbian party. oh fark! because julian's friend, iris is not 21 yet. ahh, i dont blame iris but i blame thumper. what the fark. so strict for what. we can only sit quietly on the stairs of goodwood hotel. how sians. but then im brave enough to say hi to my dream girl =) we got fate! she's in the que and we're behind her. hee hee! ok NEVERMIND. shall go next month. shall go town often so i got high tendency of bumping onto her. alright, and then we went to labyrinth to play pool, sing song and drink. ONLY i drink lo. what a drinking kaki ive. shall ask jun to drink with me next time, i want to compete with her again. she has a very big throat pipe. ohwells, i can drink with that silly girl, tezel too. she needa drink alot to hit the tipsy part, by the time im drunk! hoho

okok i got headache now, i go play sudoku. goodnight dudes (brathey)


| tiffany. 4:45 AM|

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Tuesday, August 01, 2006

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i come to realise something, we dont love each other that much at all. i used the word 'we', yah its the both of us. because, not even we're not there for each other, we hurt each other so badly.. if you seriously love someone, isnt that you need to give one happiness? i remember my friend told me that the both of us need to learn not to hurt each other.. ive been thinking.. deep thinking.. why do i always say all those ugly words to you, why do i continuously hurt you? i must learn.. learn not to hurt you..

nobody knows what's wrong, its ok. ive no one to turn to but its ok. i just need time, need time to sort things out to forget you. not even to forget but to forgive. i need to learn all this all over again. its easy to say not easy to do it. if i show that im calm with everything, doesnt mean that ive really forget. doesnt mean that the hurt is not there. there are times i wanted to go overseas, to study abroad. i dont wanna stay in this country anymore, i got emo easily but i hide. is not that i wanted to bottle up all this, is just that... i dont kno how to say.. i dont kno how to say it out anymore.. im afraid i might breakdown one day. i work, i do my projects, i went out with friends, and that doesnt mean im ok. but still i dont want my friend to ask me, especially to ask me if im ok with the past relationship. i dont even want to hear her name, i just cant take it this time. i really cant but its part and parcel of my life, i need to experience all this. i accept, but god, please reduce the pain ive now.. im not the person who keeps everything inside me, i always need to let out, i always complain. but this time it hurt soooo much that im speechless, i... i... i dont kno how to put it anymore.. my heart is scared.

i believe im strong enough to overcome all this, it just takes time. and at the time being i dont wanna hurt others too when my heart is yet to recover, i shall just stay away from any. its not easy lah i can say, well i'll try..




| tiffany. 4:22 AM|

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