Friday, November 21, 2008

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ok i just wanna vent my anger over here!

i happily happily steal huishan's girlfriends contact from her phone last night and happily sms them bout meeting up on 4dec for a short mini surprise birthday celebration.

so this morning, joyce replied okay shes in. gina never reply(duno why) and qianping replied ask whats my plan.

never would i kno when i finished telling her my plan..

qp: gina's having exams, can meet after 9dec?

me: then it would be a belated birthday celebration. its juz a short meet up with no cut cake session and we leave at 10. plus last year none of u attend her 21st big day.

qp: the next day i need to wake up at 7. gina exam on monday, she got no time to study and dont you think it is not nice for you to bring out the past? diz will result shan in losing friend.

i was like what the fuck?! losing friend?! and okay fine i bring up the past! and im a little demanding, its all bcuz i feel why they no heart one, what a friend is this? she said i duno about the past. so i keep my cool and reply her so what about the past? (chill~) she uttered alot of ugly past this and that which ive no right to comment about it.

and so.... i swallowed my pride and said.. okay so maybe my approach was wrong and i merely protecting/defending my own gf bcuz i feel the "no-heart" feelings since her last year 21st big day. when she spent more than $500 on her birthday in order to gather most of her friends but none of her polymates attend. and i told her im not trying to start a fight here, can she talk nicely to me cuz actually im trying to cool myself down and talk nicely.. i indirectly apologizing to her and hope she get it. and i swallow again.. i ask so okay she wants a postpone okay fine..

after my giving in, she still can tell me she actually very angry with me for saying all that. halo i not angry lo like that. no choice, its my beloved gf's birthday, IVE TO FUCKING SWALLOW MY PRIDE to someone i dont really like and seriously she is not a good person in character. hahah! okay whatever, who am i to discriminate people right?

the morale of the story is, doesnt mean whatever you do, no matter how much effort you put in, things wont go your way.. not everything goes as your plan.. fuck to birthdays planning, im suck at it. next year my birthday i celebrate with my gf alone in conrad international. i dont wanna bother anyone!




| tiffany. 9:50 AM|

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Tuesday, November 18, 2008

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haven been updating my blog. feel so restless this days, wanted to type something here but i stop..

quite unhappy with some stuffs, infact alot of stuffs but people ask me da take it easy. must hav an open mind~ usually people think im a happy-go-lucky person.. but mind you.. im a very emotional person. "feeling feeling" la..

screwed up my term two assessment. again. how do i do that? im so SUCK at presentation and my execution. imagine i got pissed when i present to the lecturers? got pissed at myself for being sooo lousy.. first time i feel im not cut out for a interior designer..

and.. guess what, i broke down. first time in my life hahaha! but nobody kno except eileen. haiya huper paiseh lah i dont wanna talk bout it. when i repeat the whole story to huishan, she said she feels like crying too.. mmm cuz she kno how much effort ive put in?

anyway whatever its over. its my holidays now, im gonna play hard and work hard. this matter like happened a week ago and i stil cant get over with it.

but anyway ITS OVER. so yupp. okay! change topic. recently im quite stress.. i freakin' duno what to get for huishan.. her big 22 birthday coming.. tho she demand a chanel which i wont b able to afford, i duno what else to give her already. any suggestion? last year i got her agnes b tote bag and sling bag already.

girls, give me some suggestion.. tag me
budget: $200-$300



| tiffany. 11:14 AM|

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