Tuesday, April 21, 2009
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FUCK to FYP!
seriously cannot take it liao. sooooo many days of sleepin on d couch. dont even kno d time already, night is morning, morning is night. breakfast is my supper, lunch is my breakfast, dinner is my lunch. all upside down.
left four fuckin' days! uber tired. really cannot take it. im like in DEAD sleep last night. soo afraid of my perspective will turn out ugly. i wanted to ask my clique to come over to my graduation show but im afraid of throwing my face for my ugly panels man.
wanted to support boy on saturday, but i couldnt. i was in school from 11am to 1030pm. halooo its a saturday. i was in school doing my model. happily, jiselle was there to help me in d model. tho we do very slow but we're like two silly kid doing cutting and pasting together -hurhur-
alright i duno what to type here already. back to you work =/
| tiffany. 12:27 AM|
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Saturday, April 11, 2009
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i seriously detest the term DATING. kno what? nowadays young people definition of 'dating' is less than a couple but more than friends. meaning to say you can hold hands, hug, kiss and even fuck around.
tho i did that when i was like 18 or 19. but i really cannot do it now. say im old fashion or whatsoever. if you want to get together then get together, why be wishy washy. my definition of 'dating' is.. purely friend, go for simple dinner, movie and do silly things together. its just so simple.
your 'dating' will only lead to one will expect things in return after which everything has happen. like you would think, oh we already slept together why cant we go further. and when the other one feels that he/she is not ready, conflict begins..
worse still, when you wish to end it. it became very very complicated. two scenarios, one would be the never-ending situation, another one, enermy. let alone become normal friends.
i didnt give you attitude. i just cannot digest what had happened and wonder if you do give a shit to how i feel. i dont even wanna think of getting together, cuz i think im not the one for you. be frank, im just not good enough for you. yup.
| tiffany. 12:43 AM|
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Friday, April 10, 2009
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so many things happen la recently, didnt do my work. and everyone is like stressing me. kenneth scolded.
thursday
club at play, knew so many girls that night. so fun lah. so old already still wanna kno new girls. plus all like so young. and as usual im high that night, but i kno what im doing ok? but anyway when i step outta d club i forgot who are they already.
friday
i stayed at home but i just cant do my work. slacked, tv, chat, fb. oh yah i uploaded my old 'ah lian' pictures. everybody is talking bout it. i uploaded my friends and my ugliest photos. hahahah its hilarious!
saturday
stayed home until i received messages and i think ure drunk lah at that moment. called steph, went to that maya hindi bar. oh man! its gross. all INDIANS. and got smell one. went to steph's part time job's bar too. was introduced to d boss there, drank a few shots. and then thanks to steph, she asked them to go my house. everyone reached bout 7am. halooo! its in d morning. continue to drink cordon bleu with steph.
sunday
steph still over my house. slacked with steph and them. slept from 8am-4pm. then never touch my work lo. went dinner/supper with steph and her and head to pj for awhile..
monday
no school and i slacked d whole damn day at home
tuesday
went school and after school sat down at back alley to settle some stuff. until 9pm! got gastric by then. hurhur
wednesday
went school and then met jen at alley bar for two rounds of erdinger. nice! like to chat with her so much. i think we can chat till next morning lah budden time is precious. we catch up awhile and head home.
today
went school feeling moody and stress.. and i think i began to feel d stress for being so slow at my work. like suddenly no motivation. no sense of agency. as usual, sent her home and i was invited to her house.. woooo.. first time ate d maggie she cook, nice~ tom yum somemore..
and.. my tortoise died yesterday. today then i kno my mom and maid buried it under d mrt tracks opp my flat. not sad tho, but felt a twitch lah. i think my sis very sad bout MY terrapin lo, so cute also not hers. plus i din even see her play with it. anyway dead tortoise so huge! bigger than your secondary school exercise book hor. i called lirong and told her our tortoise died, she kaobeikaobu lah. like my fault like that, kns what a mother wu gui had -whatever-
met my gang 11pm at red dot brewhouse at dempsey. cheap beers. somebody suppose to join me. went down play to pick her. so drama lahh.. how old liao still act like a kid. -shrugs- i think i dont belong to club. hahaha tho i saw my friends lah and its fun last thursday budden tiring man. im old.. im a boring person, i rather chill at jazz bar, drinking away, playin cards, ktv bars to sing, kbox, or mahjong with my cliques. oh yah please plan for basketball game, im fine with it even if ive fyp to rush. i don wanna club, party or whatsoever after this week. sompa!
tomorrow gonna soooo sooo much stay at home to do work of cuz. haloo, back to you work. so i can stress-lessly enjoy shumei's hens night on saturday to clark quay. see! party again! so many events! so 'sinful' and sunday ive a steamboat gathering with my secondary school basketball-mates. seriously lah, tomorrow i do my school work.
alright shall catch some sleep. goodnight J______
(:
| tiffany. 5:37 AM|
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Monday, April 06, 2009
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repeat only d same song
sipping sour red wine alone, because ure gone
im sleepy but thinkin' of you
finishing this..
hungry, but bread is too plain
biscuits too dry
wheres d maggie
you cook nice maggie
baby potatos, butter corns, bacon beats
dazzling stars
bossnova music
cushioned base
jac's place
my heart's bruised
| tiffany. 4:18 AM|
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alone in this house again tonight
ive got the tv on
the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
there's picture of you and i on the walls around me
the way that it was and could've been surrounds me
i'll never get over you walkin' away
'cause i've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
and i thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
but im just drunk enough to let go of my pain
to hell with my pride let it fall like rain from my eyes
tonight i wanna cry.
would it help if i turned a sad song on
"all by myself"
would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
or mayb unfold some old yellow lost love letters
it's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
i'll never get over you by hiding this way
to let go of my pain, to hell with my pride
let it fall like rain from my eyes
tonight i wanna cry..
| tiffany. 2:13 AM|
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Thursday, April 02, 2009
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i duno what's wrong with me.. i really duno..
im feeling not very good now.. my nose block like duno what, my voice is different, my throat is dry, so much phlegm along my throat and nose, its so irritating!
another thing, im really not feeling good. what the fuck?! can someone tell me?
its juz a few days, and im so hooked onto it. i cant do ID, i cant sleep, i cant focus, and im sick!
what happend to me?! my mind full of many things. i just cant settle down. that shouldnt b the way. i think i better go sleep.
i dont wanna think. thats it
i wanna change my blog address because i dont want you to see what's in me. because you dont even care. because you'd shut me off. i dont even wish to talk bout this thing to you.
fuck! im just emo.
you dont kno its you..
| tiffany. 12:17 AM|
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