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Saturday, February 26, 2005

at home.
nothing to do at home. eh recently alot things happened. injured my ankle. lost to nyp. no money. never work like today. quarrelled with my dad like today. but then dad agreed to sponsor me a vespa la. so nevermind i forgive him. haha. hmm. i lost someone important. yupp. at first really think that she's a nusiance to me la. noisy. irritating. paranoid. sensitive. control me. gosh. now ok le ba. yesterday bring her to school. watched match with her. half way went to 303 play bball. hahaha so fun. played with debbie, haixin, becca and weiling. played 6on6 with a bunch of little girls. laugh and laugh. run here and there. eh i lost touch to that farking ball liaos. ha. i only can run here and there on court during match and maybe help assist that damn ball la. 3points still ok. the rest i cannot make it liaos. ha. dunno why la. eh this ivp make me cant concentrate on my studies oso. damnit. think i'm gonna get another warning letter. i never go for some modules for more than 5times. eh repeat lo. oh ya. lirong coming back to sp. continue where she stopped. oh great. same class i think. same team. ha no freedom. bleh~ =b hmm.. she's quitting her job. i dont support that lo. cuz.. her colleague all treat her damn good. its a pity la. to leave front desk as her job. hoho wadeva la. she happy can liaos.

| tiffany. 3:29 PM|

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Thursday, February 24, 2005

-sad-
we broke up le. this time is the real one. seriously am afraid you would do silly things.. please please dont. no point one. miracle wont happen. my heart wont be back. yupp. i hurt you. hurt you badly. yes. i dont bear to leave you. but we've no choice. no point being together. do you still want me when my heart is not there? sigh. i dunno how to describe the feeling. its so complicated. its all my fault. nobody can believe i once love you so much before. i woo you for a year. in the end i din cherish you. i'm not worth lahh....... urgh! i hate myself.

| tiffany. 7:44 AM|

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hmm.
had a tough fight on friday. yup we lost. but we lose till very shuang. no regrets. after the match and even now, the scene of the match keep appearing in my mind. gosh. is like my first ivp game that i've played so long. i think its almost 1 and a half year i never had a great match like this that i played. so shiok. this year i played so little. cuz of my farkin injuries. urgh. eh. dunno how to describe the feelin right now. is our team bonded now? on friday, it was the first time i feel so close to them. so long don have the feeling that i lost it for long, my communication with bird. the feeling is so strong. we're like the old pair on court again like we're in the old time. our team spirit. first time. 22nd feb is an unforgettable day. dunno how they feel. gosh i so emo. eh though my steal then lay up din get in, my cut ball also never gets in and my defence sucks. i still happy la. contented liaos. as long as we're close. yupp.

| tiffany. 7:01 AM|

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Monday, February 21, 2005

i gif up.
i tried so hard for wad? u guys don worth anything. i tried and tried until its so fake. i'm leaving.. i tried so hard to fit in this group. there's gap huh? nobody cares or understands. INSENSITIVE MORONS. i hate you guys to the core. all are selfish people like me.
i endured this for dont know how many months. since the day lirong and julian leave me. am alone. always alone. now that am used to it. i no need you guys. i can handle things myself. i can play on my own. i can train hard on my own.i can eat on my own.
oh ya.... as if anyone care. i'm an attention seeker. i admit i deprived for attention. i dont care now. i almost say everything out here. who cares?? don ask me to read their blog. i dont feel anything. numb. i'm just an idiot waiting for them. an actor, to pretend am happy. hahaha i'll continue to PRETEND. i dont even care everyone is as down as me. don give farkin excuses i tell u. fark off.

| tiffany. 12:58 AM|

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Saturday, February 19, 2005

forget it.

| tiffany. 7:54 PM|

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Friday, February 18, 2005

i'm not important.
don bluff me anymore. nobody cares. i'm useless. physically weak. i cant play. but i wanna play badly.. i really really wanna play.. why is diz happening to me?

| tiffany. 12:16 AM|

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Wednesday, February 16, 2005

yupp.
we broke off.. ok? fine?

| tiffany. 8:25 AM|

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Monday, February 14, 2005

* happi vdae *
a special dae. hmm just now waikim, bao, xiao june, karine and lirong came over to my house. hoho. nothing much. just slack. watch passion of the christ. they eat and eat. then cook mee for them. keep eating. pop gave them 10bucks of angbao. so generous. siao give too much. then they play with my new phone. zhi lian de kim keep taking photo of herself. eh we watched tbee. then play blackjack and our bet is drink half glass of water! haha. drank alot sia. but quite fun. so full. i went to the toilet more than two times. gosh. oh must remember next saturday got another outing with them. =)

| tiffany. 1:20 AM|

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Friday, February 11, 2005

hmm ydae
lost my voice. got sore throat for like dont know how many days already. the pain-est will be when i wake up. gosh i never go work today. no show. i couldnt wake up la. too tired. slept at 4 last night. never get to sleep this few days. went to lirong's house to bai nian with bao and june. went to bao's house afterwards. then to jelvin's house. whoa. alot people sia. haha her mom so cute. she said she dont know to say me shuai or pretty.. muahha cuz of my permed hair. funny sia. then saw mah there. hate to see her la. dont know why. not because of lirong that i hate her lo. its because of her character i guess. she's too domineering le. as for now i dont know. never contact her. she's a jerk la. hate her. anyway we gamble la. blackjack. damnit. i lost 40 i guess. all my $2 gone to dont know who. think all to boy. she won alot sia. jealous. saw one stack of notes. ha. i seldom gamble one la. just for fun. thought i can win money for kbox. hmm after jelvin house i went to kbox with daze, boy, julian and lirong. then i only smoke one cigarette, my voice like ah du's voice liaos.. then i drank one jug of beer. cuz nobody drink! hahah play scissor paper stone lost to lirong's brother. then have to drink the beer in one shot. haha cool. so long never drink le. well, quite fun. tired though. =) shall end here.

| tiffany. 4:50 PM|

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Monday, February 07, 2005

i don feel like tokin!
i told u so many times.. don irritates me~! urgh.
i keep myself busy at work today. cant sleep last night. toss and turn from 3-4. sians. time pass very fast during work. i seems happy. am i?
cried alone just now. sigh.

| tiffany. 11:49 PM|

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*/ sick
sick wor. high fever. no strength at all. think because somebody spread sore throat to me. then go bun's house ton, her room too cold. then got flu ba. work half way i got headache. damn suay la. like dead like that. chinese new year coming also. damnit. must wear till so girl on that day. lucky only one day for this year. bought alot nice top. no new levi's this year.
hmm.. very unhappy now.. hurt someone unintentionally. i'm sorry.. i know sorry wont help.. i never lie.. i never..

| tiffany. 1:14 AM|

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