Thursday, February 26, 2009

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alone again naturally..

in a little while from now
if im not feeling anyless sour
i promise myself to treat myself
and visit a nearby tower
and climbing to the top will throw myself off
in an effort to make it clear to who
ever what it's like when you're shattered
left standing in the lurch at a church
where people saying 'my god'
that's tough she's stood him up
no point in us remaining
we may as well go home
as i did on my own
alone again, naturally
to think that only yesterday
i was cheerful, bright and gay
looking forward to well who wouldnt do
the role i was about to play
but as if to knock me down
reality came around
and without so much
as a mere touch
cut me into little pieces
leaving me to doubt
talk about god in his mercy
who if he really does exist
why did he desert me in my hour of need
i truly am indeed
alone again, naturally
it seems to me that there are more hearts
broken in the world that cant b mended
left unattended
what do we do?
what do we do?
alone again, naturally
now looking back over the years
and whatever else that appears
i remember i cried..
never wishing to hide the tears
i cried and i cried all day
alone again, naturally


| tiffany. 1:35 AM|

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Sunday, February 22, 2009

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19thfeb. boy my buddy's two-two birthday.

went steamboat at her house and then i realised something.. boy uve a very very good family, relatives and has alot friends. like i can feel the bless. went to her room and saw alot photos and basketball stuff, it kind of make me reminisce the past of the time i play ball. ha quite influential.

anyway im better after the 'big cry'. after which u guys left me. i kno my friends all hav their own things to do. i cant possibly depend on them. therefore ive come to realise ive to buck up. i duno why, but its like a snap on your finger and there.. im awake already (hopefully..) on my own.. i will walk thru this where it almost screw my life.

whatever it is, im not the worse tho i feel this is the worse for me. there's so many out there are worse than me. haha cliche huh. but true~ many times i want to end my life, but im a coward la. i dont hav the courage. ha like drama huh?

you never feel this way before you wont kno exactly how terrible this is. until when you got it. ohwell that would b my greatest fear.. i believe anyone or rather everyone will feel like dying for someone at least once in their life. ok its my point of view.




| tiffany. 5:16 PM|

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Monday, February 16, 2009

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many wonder, how am i doin now? am i good or can i manage alone. to all my caring friends, fact is im not okie.. but im trying very hard to do everything i should do.

prioritize my time, yes im still trying very hard. its never easy..

ohwell, one project down - history. which i think ive done my very best. all out to tomorrow's presentation. now is ID, nahh its forever ID my major. professional practice, technology and communication.

most important things to deal now is my emotions. mind over heart. easy to say, hard to fulfill.

if i cant get back to the right track im getting no where. myself kno all this shit but ive to control..

if im not strong enough i wont b writing all this and still coming to school. yes its another breakdown. -shrugs. i hav no idea if i can make it. but to try my best. after all its myself to overcome all this shit*




| tiffany. 11:48 PM|

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